Today was a great day because I have finally found the therapist that I have been searching for. I have been on this self-care regime since I called off my wedding with my long time boyfriend and father of my 4-year old daughter almost a year ago. The breakup hit me harder than any breakup I have ever experienced and I initiated it. However, I knew it was the best decision for me and my children to let that relationship go. I cried and prayed nightly for God to show me and lead to what He believes I need to do. So God revealed to me self-care. It is now time that I focus on becoming the best possible version of myself in all areas of my life. I made a commitment to be patient with myself and my feelings because they were and are real. So no matter how challenging things get and how tempting it may be to result to what I am used to, I promised myself that I will fight my hardest to focus on myself and my well-being.
Now back to today, I officially signed on for therapy with my new therapist. My assessment was completed today with her which determined whether or not therapy was necessary and what concerns should be the focus of therapy. I spent 45 minutes with her today and 45 minutes with her last week for a thorough assessment where she asked me a variety of questions in conversation form. OMG! When I tell you I cried my eyes out the entire time at both sessions. Whew! But it was a release cry not the cry of hurt and pain that I tend to experience every time I am not busy.
I am looking forward to what therapy holds for me and my self-care journey. I haven't been happy in a long time. You know that peaceful happiness. I am dedicated to doing whatever possible to experience a joy I never had. Therapy isn't the entire key to my happiness but I believe that getting help and healing from past and present hurt will play a major role.
Here are some websites for therapists if therapy is something you are interested in doing.
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